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Monday 11 November 2013

Been rather under the weather...


Well as promised some images of the workers cottage next door to Manor Farm..

Sorry they are a bit dark but I really couldn't bare to use a flash.....






































































































































































I could have moved right in...
I wish I'd been feeling better on the day, I couldn't move my head  because of the vertigo so the images are rather basic... the floor upstairs finished me off!
It was amazingly uneven... fabulous but not for me on that day...


Well I've had a rather challenging time with my body for the past two and a half months and that's been on top of the normal health challenges I have been dealing with for 10 years...
Sometimes it is easier living alone when I feel crap I can just let the body rest with no outside pressure but sometimes when things are really bad or drag on... it is well really crap and I wish I was in a loving relationship, or had family close by to make some soup or just do the washing up.

Having got a bit run down after a month of endless vertigo migraines I got another tooth abscess under the same blinking tooth ( one I've been trying to save for 20 odd years, after a dental cock-up) but this time had to admit defeat and agree to have the tooth removed... YUK... only that was just the start off the latest drama...
An hour and a half after the event, I'd been feeling fine... then everything suddenly went odd and I blacked out... I came round, face down, thinking I was on a nice beach somewhere... lovely... slowly realising that no that was a mat not sand, the sound of distant waves was actually me moaning and the sweating was not due to the heat of the sun but shock... then I promptly started vomiting...  5 hours later I realised the extent of the bruising and grazing I'd done to my face etc... adrenaline really does block pain very well and though herringbone jute matting may look very nice on the floor it isn't such a good look on one's face... and yes those cartoon egg like bruises do happen in real life!!
It's a miracle I didn't take an eye out on the radiator or break anything as there is concrete under the matting... but I have no memory of going down at all which is very odd...

Anyway it is now two weeks on that all that happened and yesterday was the first day the awful symptoms of concussion finally lessened to the point I could actually look at something without spinning out or crawling back to bed with nausea...
It really has been a rather hellish 2 months.

I know my situation is not generally life threatening but when one lives alone and feels so crap for so long it is very challenging...

I am lucky to be an eternal optimist...

I've learnt to accept that I won't have children of my own due to a early menopause at 38...
But even after 10 years I do believe that one day my body will be strong enough to shake off the ME/CFIDS and cluster Vertigo Migraines...
That  my weekly treatments will allow us to stabilise my spine so that one day I will be able to do some of the things that  I miss so much... be able to sit in a bath,  have a walk whenever I fancy or joy of joys start making Jewellery again and even ride a bicycle...


But for now I'm just pleased I am no longer feeling so nauseous!!


Till next time.... Smiles Cass x



8 comments:

  1. What a horrible time! I didn't know about your health issues pre existing....it sounds like a super rotten time, I'm sorry. I would most certainly pop by with soup if I could....I hate hearing that you're lacking the support at times when you feel you need it. Hopefully you are out the other side of things now and will continue to feel better and stronger each day. Sending you my thoughts..... xXx

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  2. First I want to comment on that gorgeous house oh Boy its dreamy I love that yellow larder cabinet everything looks so cosy you could just light that fire and sit and dream for a while with a hot chocolate. I am so very sorry to read of your ill health but I am glad to hear you are feeling a little better. I suffer with Meniere's disease have done for years and I take betahistine for mine and it helps with the dizziness. Thankfully I haven't had an episode since taking it for about 5 years now but I still get a funny head with certain lights in shops. My son suffers with Chronic fatigue as well as crohn's disease and depression so I can really sympathise with you. Its horrible when you feel so unwell and have no support. I hope your blog brings it to you in the form of comments. Big hugs,dee x

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  3. That all sounds very nasty...wish blogging could be more helpful. I fainted once after dental work so I'm not surprised by what happened. Hope your arm chair by the fire is as cosy as in that picture. Sending positive thoughts. xx

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  4. Dear Cass, like Jo above, I didn't know about your health problems (coming late to your blog) I'm so sorry you've been so ill, especially as you seem to have little support around you. We all seem to be far away from where you live, but I'm sure as readers we all send you lots of kind thoughts. xxx

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  5. Oh Cass, I'm sorry you've had such a bad time, I wish I lived close by and could pop round with some soup and a got drink for you, take care :) xxx

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  6. So sorry to hear about the dreadful time you have been having over the past few months. It must be hard to struggle at times like this on your own. I hope things will be better now, thinking of you.
    The pictures of Manor farm are lovely I did enjoy the programme, funnily enough I am just about to do a post about the new series.
    Sarah x

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  7. Very touched by your kind thoughts and wishes... thank you...Smiles Cass xx

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  8. Dear Cass,

    So sorry to hear you have not been feeling well for some time. I can imagine it must be horrible being on your own when your not feeling well. I wish I lived closer by, so that I could pop over with some soup, or a piece of cake or just to keep you company.

    Your photo's of the manor farm look lovely. It's a tiny house, but it looks enchanting!

    Take care Cass!

    Love, Madelief xox

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It is always lovely to receive a comment from you... smiles Cass x