Well as promised some images of the workers cottage next door to Manor Farm..
Sorry they are a bit dark but I really couldn't bare to use a flash.....
I could have moved right in...
I wish I'd been feeling better on the day, I couldn't move my head because of the vertigo so the images are rather basic... the floor upstairs finished me off!
It was amazingly uneven... fabulous but not for me on that day...
Well I've had a rather challenging time with my body for the past two and a half months and that's been on top of the normal health challenges I have been dealing with for 10 years...
Sometimes it is easier living alone when I feel crap I can just let the body rest with no outside pressure but sometimes when things are really bad or drag on... it is well really crap and I wish I was in a loving relationship, or had family close by to make some soup or just do the washing up.
Having got a bit run down after a month of endless vertigo migraines I got another tooth abscess under the same blinking tooth ( one I've been trying to save for 20 odd years, after a dental cock-up) but this time had to admit defeat and agree to have the tooth removed... YUK... only that was just the start off the latest drama...
An hour and a half after the event, I'd been feeling fine... then everything suddenly went odd and I blacked out... I came round, face down, thinking I was on a nice beach somewhere... lovely... slowly realising that no that was a mat not sand, the sound of distant waves was actually me moaning and the sweating was not due to the heat of the sun but shock... then I promptly started vomiting... 5 hours later I realised the extent of the bruising and grazing I'd done to my face etc... adrenaline really does block pain very well and though herringbone jute matting may look very nice on the floor it isn't such a good look on one's face... and yes those cartoon egg like bruises do happen in real life!!
It's a miracle I didn't take an eye out on the radiator or break anything as there is concrete under the matting... but I have no memory of going down at all which is very odd...
Anyway it is now two weeks on that all that happened and yesterday was the first day the awful symptoms of concussion finally lessened to the point I could actually look at something without spinning out or crawling back to bed with nausea...
It really has been a rather hellish 2 months.
I know my situation is not generally life threatening but when one lives alone and feels so crap for so long it is very challenging...
I am lucky to be an eternal optimist...
I've learnt to accept that I won't have children of my own due to a early menopause at 38...
But even after 10 years I do believe that one day my body will be strong enough to shake off the ME/CFIDS and cluster Vertigo Migraines...
That my weekly treatments will allow us to stabilise my spine so that one day I will be able to do some of the things that I miss so much... be able to sit in a bath, have a walk whenever I fancy or joy of joys start making Jewellery again and even ride a bicycle...
But for now I'm just pleased I am no longer feeling so nauseous!!
Till next time.... Smiles Cass x
